So even as my husband held it together and functioned like everyone else on the
outside, alcohol was destroying him on the inside. Once he admitted the truth, he
began the long and gruelling process of getting well.
As a part of his recovery from alcoholism, Matt learned about brain chemistry and
the neurotransmitters that control our pleasure centers in the brain. The lessons
were important for me to learn, too, because it helped me accept the fact that my
husband was an alcoholic, and that label didn’t mean he was a degenerate with a
deviant mind and a bad heart. He was sick, and needed treatment to get better,
just as in the case with all other chronic and deadly diseases. So learning about
brain chemistry made me a better spouse, and it also helped me cope with the
damage done to my family.
The damage alcohol does to the brain of an alcoholic is because his
neuro-pathways are reacting naturally to one of the world’s most highly addictive
substances. Alcohol brings pleasure to the drinker, and his brain releases
dopamine and other neurotransmitters associated with pleasure. Our brains are
constantly trying to reach a state of equilibrium, and if he drinks a lot, his brain
starts to reserve the dopamine for only when he drinks. Therefore, normal,
everyday pleasures cease to bring feelings of pleasure. To avoid flooding his
brain with dopamine, his brain only releases it when he drinks. Our brains
associate pleasure with survival, so alcohol becomes linked to survival as well.
The alcoholic brain demands alcohol to trigger the dopamine release no matter
how determined the drinker is not to drink.
When Matt was committed to sobriety, his subconscious mind had different
ideas. Because of the subconscious connection between alcohol and survival,
Matt’s brain continued to beg for booze. This is one of the most diabolical
components to alcoholism, and to understand the brain chemistry is to
understand why alcoholics relapse so often.
As the spouse of an alcoholic, it was tremendously beneficial to learn about brain
chemistry and understand the battle my husband faced. Alcoholics Anonymous
addresses addiction to alcohol as a spiritual lacking. There is no doubt that
spirituality plays a huge role in conquering addiction, but there are tangible,
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